As you might know there are 365 days in a year, and that is exactly how long it has been since I was temporarily unable to walk... A lot has happened in a year since then and I didn't expect to have changed in myself that much because of it, but I have. So here is a break down of what has happened over exactly a year today!
1. I can now walk, even though I was unable to walk for a period of approx. 5/6 months, and then again for a shorter period of 3/4 weeks when I had a sudden relapse.
2. I lost someone very close to me as they sadly passed away after months of struggle from a stroke, and then a more serious stroke.
3. I changed my mind at least 32062810 times on what I was going to do in year 13 of sixth form, and then what I wanted to after that. I went from having a gap year and working my butt off for more money, to wanting to go to uni, to wanting to go on a lot of work experience to get some idea of the industry world, and even considered spending a year doing a foundation year because it might help me in getting into uni.
4. I have changed emotionally and mentally. I have had to repeat myself a lot to doctors/nurses/physiotherapists/neurological physiotherapists/psychologists and it ended up helping me come to terms with how serious this was. It might sound stupid but when I was in hospital and they read a list out of serious things it could have been to cause me to stop walking like a brain tumour/M.S./a tumour or lump on my spine/a virus that could be permanent... it hit me that it could have been those but when tests came back all clear I blocked it out of my mind so I never thought of it again. It only hit me when I had my relapse and a physio asked "How would you feel if you were like this forever?" Now I know that there have been a lot of people who use to be able to walk and now can't because of a number of things from war injuries to car crashes, but having that question put forward to you when you've come out of something once, is scary. All I could think about was how it would affect me at school, and uni, and at work and in future life. Since that point I have become more determined in things such as getting my art coursework done and to the best I can do it, to get the grades I need to get into uni, to do whatever I want to the best of my ability (and all the other cheesy things I would say, but I don't want you to vomit from the soppiness).
5. I can drive. Now I have booked my test and it is within the next month and this to me is a huge achievement. To me driving is a step towards being totally independent since I wouldn't have to ask my mum to drive me to x/y/z, instead I could say "Mum I'm going to (insert place)" and go! Simple as that.
That's all I can think of at the moment but hopefully now that I have settled into the final year of sixth form I will be blogging a lot more and also doing some vlogs of things I get up to and even some challenges that I have planned......
Thank you for reading this and I hope you are all enjoying the start of a new school year. If you have any requests for blogs/vlogs, just comment below or tweet me
Speak to you later m'lovelies!!
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