SO! Results day was a week ago and I'm not going to lie, I wasn't as happy as I wanted to be. I got a C in English Literature and a D in History. To me this is a big disappointment because after coming out of all my exams for them, I was expecting to manage to get a B in both, maybe an A if I was lucky enough to get low grade boundaries. This obviously was not the case.
I have really bad anxiety when it comes to exams and the environment that come with them. I go in confident (but not over confident) and know what I need to know. At this point I feel fine until the examiner shouts "BEGIN"! This is when I panic, go blank, want to run away and hide somewhere where no one can find me for a long time. I don't know why I get like this but I think the pressure suddenly hits me and I realise that this is the real thing.
All I can do now though is embrace my final year at school/sixth form and do the best I can. Luckily with my art, it means I'll be able to get all the UCAS points I should need to get into the uni's I like and want to get interviews at, but still I'm cracking down in Art and History (I'm dropping English Literature purely on an enjoyment level) to get the best I can and go out of year 13 with a bang. This means actually doing work in my free lessons and not getting distracted in actual lessons, so, wish me luck! Anyway, moving on!
Moving totally away from UCAS and exams and school jargon... I have no more physio for 6 months! WOOH! This means no missing school and having to catch up from other people and after school, it means no physio exercises at home just general exercise (which I can do now!) and also means no more "I can't do that because of....". It means I'm basically normal so if I meet anyone new I don't have to say "don't worry, I'm not ridiculously nervous, my legs constantly shake" and have to go into the whole back story of the last 11 months. Wow, 11 months is a long time for this to have been happening!
Now I am back to "normal" though, I'm focusing on other things like doing my practical driving test! That's right I passed my theory after failing for the first time. First time round I got 42/50 on the multiple choice and 38/75 on the hazard perception, for those of you who don't know, you need 43/50 and 44/50 to pass. Clearly I didn't. Second time though I got 47/50 and 50/75 and so passed which is all good :) Now it's just a case of waiting for the big day and wanting a car even more.
Another thing I'm focusing on is losing weight. I know this was in my very first blog posts and was one of my new year resolutions but give me credit, I've finally learnt to walk which is quite good for me. So now my goal is to lose weight and actually go to the gym/pool that I have available to me. This will be something that I will also blog about. And talking about blogging...
I have decided that my blog is going to be a way of me talking about my general life and everything else around me because even though some people don't find my life interesting, I do and want to share this with people who like to read about things like this. This will include food, cats, gym/pool sessions, days out, cats and more cats. Yes I have a small obsession with cats. But it may also include things with hair and makeup because I am a girl and I like that stuff. If you don't like it.. DON'T READ IT! Simples *meerkat noise*.
That's all I really have to report but I am sure I will be back soon enough so enjoy yourselves m'lovelies and I you are well and happy :)
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